Digital and Transcendental, Death and Light, 2019
“Last summer I started having panic attacks. I was in the cinema when it first started; when I realized I could not breathe, with my heart pounding fast and my vision blurred. As I struggle to catch my breath, I experienced immerse fear - the fear of death. It crawled out my senses and called upon my primitive angst. I was sent to the hospital’s emergency room, where I stayed till the dawn of the next day. Along with a series of examinations and blood tests, they found nothing wrong. Yet ever since my first panic attack, I have become very paranoid. It has reached an extreme that I would be horrified by simple “goodbyes”, as if they were the final farewells to my life; as if I would never wake up again once I close my eyes.”
The series surrounds some fragmentary contemplations on the issue of death and existential anxiety, while simultaneously illustrates on how mindfulness and interconnectedness played a role in my recovery.
The works are as followed (click for work details):